Romance

17 Feb, 2025

I started ruminating about my love life again, or lack there of. Love was never my thing growing up. I've never been attracted to anyone, and honestly I have a feeling that no one has ever felt attracted to me either. It's not something I pay much mind to, but sometimes, specially around these kinds of seasons, I start feeling that I'm missing out on something. Which honestly rubs me the wrong way because I have no intentions of seeking a romantic partner. But I still feel this void that tends to hurt if I pay too much attention to it. When I tell other people that I've never been in a relationship (and I still don't want to) I'm met with surprise stares, like suddenly I've come alien to them. Is it really that important? Does it make me less of a human to not be interested in pursuing love at all?

And as every year, as if it were some sort of tradition, I come to the same conclusion: I can't see myself with anyone in any future. To me it's not a depressing thought at all, as dooming as it sounds. I guess it's just part of who I am.