Hold

11 Feb, 2025

I've been in and out of hospitals lately and it's been so tiring. One day I'll get a random, umprompted call telling me to go for a checkup and then I'll be stuck there for three days straight fighting to stay conscious. I hate being chronically ill. It takes so much effort, so much time from my life and it dreads me to even think about setting foot in a hospital. I want to do so many things but my own body fails me, keeping me from actually enjoying the things I love to do. This is why I didn't feel well enough do anything lately, and haven't even bothered to write here. It's not like I want to update this blog everyday with whatever happens in my life, but I don't want to break the habit either. I want this to be one of the few things I set myself to do and commit to it. Seeing that I often get these episodes I want to at least have something to speak my mind to, even if no one will read it.

Besides that, I've been getting into medieval neofolk music and enjoyed it a lot. Currently my faves from the genre have to be Unto Ashes and Sopor Aeternus. It helped me to keep my mind working these last couple of days, since it's got quite a feel to it that I really can't put my finger on why or what it is.